Look down

She loves me

The title is the poem
that should be the end of it
lets go on

She loves me
More than my ex
She hasn't even been my girl
But looking good for my next

She loves me
the type of love I'm scared of
because I never had love
like a wife has for her husband

She loves me
And ALL of my imperfections
Accepts me for who I am
No need to make corrections

She loves me
we pray together
she knows I hate church
so we have worship together

She loves me
But don't get it twisted
She'll check me on the foolishness
Babygirl ain't having it

She loves me
She dresses up to impress me
She's in the gym everyday
Just to look good for me

She loves me
And I'm in love with myself
I got love for her
but love searching life for myself

You know what?
She already knows that
she loves me
and still has my back

She loves me
when head is on her breast
my bad times are made better
her love is the best

She loves me
and her love is irresistible
the more I try to fight it
my resistance is futile

She loves me
and mad at her
these are my single 20s
Marriage is for 30 or after

She loves me
and deep down I love her back
she made me fall in love
how lovely is that?

Not Ashamed to Call His Name

Thank you, Lord
I'm blessed by you everyday
You're a presence in my life
In every way
Thank you for the times
I didn't have a dime
I kept my faith in you
And you enriched my mind
Your spirit is the sunshine
Without you its nightfall
Couldn't imagine life without you
At all
I imagine your love
I imagine your hug
I imagine you in my heart
Flowing through my blood
Many people worldwide
Call you different names
Those who don't call you at all
Must be insane
But you love them the same
That's why you're my role model
Right now I'm off track
But your path I will follow
Will you forgive me?
I'm a sinner with the heart of a winner
This world is cold as the winter
Will you be back this December?
Or maybe next year?
I would love to met you
You're the reason I love breathing
Because of you
I'm a Christian

B.A.D. Final

During

Good Morning Sunshine

That's my favorite nickname

I just got another pic

Dayum she looking good, mane!

I love the way she makes me feel

I'm hoping that her love is real

I forget about my problems

When we in my bed just chill

We don't fuck most nights

But when we fuck its most the night

I take her to Ms. Biscuit

Or I awake she's cooking breakfast

She's such a blessing

Especially when she's dressed up

Told her I love dresses

Give her head with her dress up

I told her I don't want a girl

She told me she don't want a man

We both got out of long term shit

Don't wanna go thru that again

Best of both worlds

I got my girl and my best friend

A new chapter in my life

I'm hoping that it never ends

B.A.D. Part 2

Before

She don't want me

Surprised like a newsflash

Doubt she'd find a better man

Trying not to give a damn

When I gave a fuck

I gave her all I could

Told her I would never hurt her

And that I'd die before I would

Told her no man on this earth

Would love her better than I can

She said that was really sweet

You are my best male friend

Is what she told me

I asked if we were meant to be

Found out like a nursing major

That we had no chemistry

She never returned calls

Never returned texts

Had to catch myself

A step away from acting reckless

Ain't saying fuck love

But fuck loving the loveless

I got love to blow

MUTHAFUCK A RELATIONSHIP

B. A. D. Part 1

After

Babygirl sad

I don't wanna be her man

But she don't understand

I just wanna be friends

Came in the door saying

"I don't want a girlfriend"

Thought she could change me

'Cuz I fucked her like my girlfriend

Gave her Baby Daddy Dick

Thank God I pulled out

18 years of Child Support

Would have been the wrong route

I still love H.E.R

But this ain't like the Common song

Thought she was my biggest fan

She left me like her team just lost

Women come and go

Rain, sleet or snow

As one leaves the door

Another comes before it close

It's a revolving door

Hell she might come back

But I wish her well

Even if I never tell her that


 

Simply Yours

Life is beautiful

And so are you

So in turn

I wanna give my life to you


 

Here I am

Signed, Sealed, Delivered

To make your knees quiver

And your Soul shiver

You're intoxicated from my elixir


 

You're afraid I'm running game

Let me tell you why that's not case

Players don't have a path, they just chase

You're the one for me, none can replace


 

It's a much better day

When I put a smile on your face

Hold you in my arms and feed you grapes

Baby, how that taste?


 

On the Sabbath

I just wanna chill with you

The other 6 days

I wanna make love and build with you


 

I'm next to you

In love with you

And down for you

Lord knows I adore you

MI. A

This is on my heart like flesh
How come I love you more?
When I wanna love you less
Why do I miss you so much?
More of a curse than a bless
Why do I dress up for you?
When my life is a mess

Without you

With out you I'm lost
No destination or direction
I'm in limbo with no exit
Various women pass
None can hold residence
I'm better than I was last year
Last month I held back my last tear
Thinking I may I have conquered my last fear
I'm broken hearted and selfish
At last dear

Didn't even get a Dear John letter
Like Dear Chaun
"I know you can I do a lot better"
"Its not you it's me"
You know the usual
You fucked me twice
Thanks for the duo!

I Miss You Already

6 months of messaging

5 weeks of calling

4 hours on the road

3 minutes to your apartment complex

2 seconds from your embrace

1 moment with you is priceless


 

I miss you already

Physically I'm holding your hand

Mentally I know this will come to an end

SO I HAVE TO

Sear this moment into my memory

I can hold on to you when I can't hold on to you


 

I miss you already

Let's wonder for awhile

Making plans on when we will meet again

Crave our names into tree

You + me with a heart surrounding

Your smile is a astounding

Let's see how it feels with my lips around them

Dayum you can kiss

I mean you have

Touched my soul

Turned me on

AND

Made me fall in love

With a Kiss


 

I miss you already

You're my new addiction

I'm riding on the a high

Rehab is for quitters

Before I quit you I would die

That's the lust talking

As we keep walking

The dusk is now upon us

I wanna fuck you until its dawn


 

I miss you already

As I lay in your bed

Looking at the ceiling

While you're giving me head


 

I miss you already

You jump on my dick

Riding me like the bull rider

I'm surprised you're not motion sick


 

I miss you already

Already I'm done rhyming

We came and now our pleasure trip

Has come to an end

I made love to my Dreamgirl

My Angel of this heaven

My heart is your haven

Whenever you need an escape

I miss you


 

I'm gone

I’m in love with a playa

She calls me "sweetie", "love" & "hunnybunch"

Spoils me with her tender touch

This is something more than a little lust

In between madly in love and a simple crush


 

Every man wants her

Gay men even get aroused when they approach her

Being her best male friend has to be torture

Cuz she will never want you as bad as you want her


 

Fuck that friend shit capsized that friend ship

When I hit I went down like the Titanic

Flushed her pussy out like a mechanic

You know how I did that?

I COMMAND IT!


 

Thought I'd surprise her with a little date

Knew she would be home

It was a little late

Who got this all black Benz in her driveway?

Look inside

She on the couch getting her pussy ate


 

Fuck that nigga I STILL WANT HER

My Carmen San Diego, No California

She stole my heart

Not cuz the sex is great

She stole my heart

Because I see we on the same page


 

I keep a roster with some superstars

My team supreme

Yeah they be going hard

Thought this boomerang thang would make me sick

Karma is the bitch I fell in love with


 

She came clean about the whole thing

I told her about me and some other things

Been engaged about a year

It feels like a dream

Now we host swingers parties every week


 

 

Helen Fisher

The Heart is a playground
Love is the child that was innocent for awhile
As she got older, the world got colder
The games people play put a chip on her shoulder


Boys use to wanna play Hide and Go Seek
Strangers coming at her like, “Hi, lets go freak”
No regard for her feelings, all they see is her physique
Don’t care about her movie they just want a sneak peek


So she grew up with an attitude for dudes
Trying to play her for fool, but she kept her cool
She smart, She could see the clues
Dudes call you boo ‘til they use you then they're through


A rose from the concrete with the world in her rearview


Tough but delicate, emotionally celibate
Best friends with Angels and lust is her closest kin
She don’t have to play pretend, as real as the day we in
No alien to sin and yet she’s still innocent

Hall Marc Card

Real quick I gotta let you know you're a real chick

If I was a teacher you'd be my pet, A Real Bitch

You're rare like yesteryear let's make this a better year

Where everybody knows you're name, you deserve the Cheers

Plus you deserve the chair, put you on a pedestal

Rose pedals at your feet like you Coming to America

I'm gunning for forever while I'm running towards your treasure

Cleaver literature that's inspired by our pleasure

July 11th 2010

The joy you give

The joy you gave

Is beauty undamaged

Like the sunrise on a beach

You rose from the darkness

My very own star

You glow

As I smile like the moon

I’m chasing you everyday

And every night I’m alone

While you’re somewhere in the world

Being admired by someone

We belong together

There is no one like you

And there is no one like me

So there’s no two like we

Another second without you

Is like a day without you

You give light which gives life

I just hold it all together

But I want hold you

And I will

The next time we eclipse

R71729

My brother is my heart

My mother’s youngest son of a family torn apart

Yeah we still kick it the love is authentic

But when one’s is in the pen, then we all bear the sentence

This is family business because no friends have invested

This is family business because no cousins have invested

In his best interest

Sure they all miss him

Who’s paying his books and takes time out to visit?

(TAKING A DEEP BREATH)

This is clearly frustration!

Half is with his ass because he’s in this situation

Wishing I could change time, realizing that I can’t

This is brotherly love so it could never go to hate

I can’t hold his hand or fight this battle for him

Give his salaats to Allah Sami' allaahu liman hamidah

It’s still crazy ironic that Christian is a Muslim

God bring my brother cuz lord knows that I miss him

Blogging Crush

My Dreamgirl from another world

We’re on the same planet

Different continents

Different backgrounds

Its funny how

Two people connect

On the internet

More then two people would

In person

Half disturbing

Half alluring

She’s more than half of

What I was looking for

I can’t tell her that

But I can tell that

She fine a MILF

And she ain’t got a kid

But would have one or two

If I was to hit

That’s nonsense

She’s attracted to

My confidence

I’m attracted to

Her innocence

Infatuation

From a distance

Calling it

What it is

Cuz what it is

Feels good

And when we do meet

Absolutely it will

Feel Good

Like this pillow I lay on

When I think of you

I’m going back to sleep

Hoping dreams really do come true

Sunset by force

My spirit is broken
Like the hearts of teenagers
Pain is no stranger
I’m just tired
Prayed for a better way
None has come
The outcome of life
Is death
Why shouldn’t I leave early?
Like I skipped class
Skip being old
And die young like they say
The good do
I feel no good now
So in the end I’ll be good to
Mourners
Who’d ask
Why did he do it?
When they all had a chance
To ask
How are you doing?
Nobody cares now
Well somebody cares
However it ain’t me
I’m really living for them
Nobody’s
Living for me
That bitch
Dumped for her ex
With no remorse or regret
And since she broke my heart
I hope her heart is broke
When I die
I wanna make it quick
The woman who gave me life
Is gonna have it taking
By her gun
A loaded revolver
She gave me for safety
I’m holding in my head
To kill myself
Safely
I know I’m going to hell
But it’s better than
Going through it
I have cried enough
Its time die like a man
As
I
Stand
In the mirror
My reflection is
Emotionless
I pull the trigger
I feel blow
Then I fa

#random

Just keep writing

Even when my mind is blocked

Brainstorming is difficult

On a sunny day

I wish I was poem

Somebody could think about

Write down

Marvel at

And then recite aloud

If I was poem

I would rhyme

Every time

I would shine like the sun

My title would be

Sunshine

My favorite alias

I’m an affection addict

My poem would be affectionate

My life is plenty hard

My words shouldn’t have to be

Carl Sandburg would admire me

Like we do Chicago

A descendant of Hip-Hop

Mixed with the Harlem Renaissance

On the paper

Like I am in person

A different kind of swag

I never emulate my peers

My poem would be special

Like I am already

Reality

Today

Was Tomorrow

And now Yesterday

Some don’t appreciate Life

Until they serving it

Or fighting for it

On a machine

Or doctor operating

Woulda, Coulda, Shouldas

Racing

Thru the mind like

Adrenaline

Thru your veins like

Octane

In a Nascar

Life goes by so fast, huh?

Wishing you could say

Good-Bye

I love you

I’m sorry

I’ll miss you

Forgive me

Today

Was a loan

Tomorrow

Is not promised

So don’t break them

Stay true to yourself

Without being selfish

Love don’t Hate

Fuck don’t Wait

Laugh don’t Cry

Live before you die

Give before you take

Pray and be blessing

Help and teach a lesson

Before it’s too late

Proverbs 18:22

She calls me “Love”

And I give her the most of

Got plenty friends but with her

She’s the most of

My diamond in the rough

That shines even when its dusk

She doesn’t ask for much

She’s content with my touch

Trust and consent to her

My ugliest secrets

She helps me cope with pain

And deal with all my regrets

We had some falling outs

But make up after while

She’d rather make me smile

Than to let me frown

I wanna make her proud

Like a wedding day

She wants me for tomorrow

I’m living for today

I ain’t afraid to say

She means the world to me

I mean the seven continents

And the seven seas

If she could only wait

But I can’t waste her time

She thinking Mrs. Hall

I’m only 25

Without her in my life

Ain’t no point to living

But I’m less scared of death

Than I am of commitment

An Angel told me.......

Eyes tell lies that the heart can’t see
Walk blindly by faith
Life is such a Journey

Its no ETA, GPS, or MPG
With God in your life
He can give you what you need

Only carry what you need
Let go of the baggage
You hurt yourself more
When you hold on to the damage

Everyone gets hurt
Some more than the average
Forgive those who hurt you
And let God be your bandage

More than 40 shot, four killed on South Side

My home is going to hell First Class
The South Side will burn before the summer pass
The temperature won’t compare to the heat from the police
But they can’t prevent the blood on the street from flowing
The way people getting shot seems just like a movie
The First 48 could do a whole season in 2 weeks
Business is good for Rayner’s, Gatling’s, and Leaks
Where the real preachers at? Brazier, Jackson, Meeks?
Guess we need another Derrion for everyone to speak
Or a Chicago Sean Bell for everyone to scream
When its niggas shooting niggas it’s a casual thing
There’s more value in Dogs, we less than animals here
No value for life or the quality of it
Once King died Black People said fuck it
We had a social divide between the Pros and the Cons
The Professionals moved and the Ex-Cons moved on
Enough with the history I ain’t promoting misery
As much as we watch the shows we need a dose of reality
We fight police brutality so we can fight Black fatalities
We can make a stand before we lose someone in our families
Black People are family and we’re all we got
We could take over the world if we could stop getting shot
A Black life is worth more than a burial plot
Imagine the world if we still had Malcolm, Martin, or Pac

Unless you want me...

Hand over my heart
You don't want it
Why is LOVE my biggest opponent?
You came into my life built for me
How could God make you a killer just like me?
We break hearts and we move on...
Except you caught me before I caught on
I gotta admit I love the way you make me feel
But like a drug, this high will only take me downhill
I would die for you my queen, like Churchill
Never knew that love and pain had the same feel
I should slow down before I get a ticket
I was thinking marriage license after I licked it
Every damn love song could be dedicated
I am losing my mind, I must be medicated
Plus everything about you is my favorite
Beautiful, good hearted, and you're educated
Ms. Crazy.Sexy.Cool I got Tender Love and Care
You're too much like me and I admit I'm scared
I am in lust with a playa and I like that
And I won't rest until I can get her right back

Monsoon Orgasms

Contrary to various hearts I’ve broken
I have a conscience
My thoughts about the routes I’ve traveled
Would baffle players in Atlanta at the Waffle House
Before I had charm I was straining my arm
Dying to get some pussy while many were dying from it
As I Die Slowly, living horny is Muthafucker
Sex has controlled me since Nintendo controllers
My dick got longer as I got older
Losing your virginity in Church is outta order
I threw out the orders when I got a whiff of her vaginal odor
A scratch and sniff when to a lick and stick
Hooked when I saw her Cum Face Look
Years later I went from naïve to malicious
I hit a few chicks just to say I did it
The stuck up one always stay on my dick
I got a fetish for a good heart in a girl
In my heart I wanna love her
In my pants I wanna fuck her
She really don’t deserve it but I make it all worth it
I bring out the freak that don’t speak when you meet her
She consents, I undress, and we make a mess
Wake up the next morning and she gone like moon
All she wanted was the dick
After I hit she was through
That was so hard to swallow as I threw away used condoms
With my head down in my condo living like a prostitute
The player got played
The user became a loser

Afterwords

When I first got you
I was hesitant to touch you
You seemed so fragile
And I didn’t want to mess up

We can only move forward despite mistakes made
When my hand touched your body
We began a new chapter
On an entire new page

Every stroke of my pen
Was delicate as a spider web
Now I’m trapped between your covers
Expressing every thought and desire

I’m the most myself with you
That’s our present
You know the least about my past
And you only care about my future

I will never hurt you
Praying you will forgive me if I do
And as we lay in my bed
Thank you for being my Journal

For Jessica

My Radio

When I was in the 5th grade, I attended Betsy Ross Elementary. The year was 1996 and I was 11 years old. It was at this moment in time that two things happened to me. One of those things that occurred was my love for music. The other thing that occurred was my desire to create write poetry. These simultaneous moments changed my outlook on life. I always had a lust for music, but not the music most people would expect. I will admit that earlier in my life I HATED RAP MUSIC. I would listen to rock, pop, and classical music on my radio. My older brothers would blast rap music all day while my parents were at work, so I grew to dislike it. That was until I stumbled on a radio station that changed my entire perspective on rap music.


Since there was only one television in my household, my parents controlled what I watched. Since I resent being controlled, I would play my radio to escape what my parents watched. My radio was a hand-me down that had seen better days. My brother thought he broke it so he gave it to me. After I played with it for a while, I worked just fine. I saw an advertisement for a Top 40s station called B96 (96.3 FM), so I wanted to hear what they had to offer my young ears. It was this woman singing so eloquently my hormones got the best of me. I was in love with her at that moment. After the song ended they said her name was Selena and the song was named ‘Dreaming of You’. It broke my heart to later find out that she had past away the year before, and I missed the chance to really appreciate her. B96 would play other artists as well and I enjoyed how diverse the selection of music was. At night I would sleep to a classical music from WFMT 98.7 FM. It drove my parents’ nuts, but I was excelling in all of my studies. I felt smarter so I performed better in my classes.

Before I got all wrapped up in hip-hop music, I was not a fan at all. Public Enemy, NWA, A Tribe Called Quest, 2PAC, MC Lyte, Salt N Pepper, Kid & Play, MC Hammer, Vanilla Ice, TLC, Snoop Dogg, Nas, Big Daddy Kane, Queen Latifah, Kool Moe Dee, Black Sheep, Digital Underground, and all other emcees were my worse enemies. Now most of these artists are in my itunes library, but then I hated then all. I was in the 5th grade when I was giving an assignment to write a poem about anything. My teacher told me that poetry was one of the fundamental parts of hip-hop music, which went back to the Harlem Renaissance and further that. My teacher explained that poets would recite their poems to a beat like emcees do in hip-hop music. Granted I hated hip-hop, but I hated getting bad grades more. So I began to write my poem. I had a crush on this girl so I wrote about her. I neither got the girl nor the best grade, but I did get a talent. My teacher said if I work hard at it that I could be a great writer. So that began my path towards writing poems, and later on 16 bar rap verses. There was a station that broadcasted hip-hop music that I really liked. It was called 106 Jamz (106.7 FM), and it featured all of the latest hip-hop music as well as the old school music that I used to hate. Unfortunately they went off the air in the summer of 1997 and I was very saddened. I credit this radio station for sparking my interest in hip-hop music.


Despite my physique I am not the most athletic, however my words do tricks like Copperfield on Halsted. I’m a poet by nature, but my heart beats music. That’s why I love rap, my reflection of this union. That was a little something I wrote to conclude this essay. I have been writing my poems and raps ever since the 5th grade. I have grown a lot since then, but I know I’m not done growing with my work. I frequently listen to the radio now, and I am repulsed by the music that is being broadcasted. I am grateful that I had a better quality of music to grow to.

When She Passes

When she passes
I lose consciousness
Staring at her silhouette
She could make metal sweat

When she passes
The ground moves as she glides
Mother Earth’s in love with her
Celebrates her every stride

When she passes
In open toe heels
I think about her camel toe
And how it must feel

When she passes
My heart skips a beat
Thank God I got a good one
She’d be my defeat

When she passes
Everyone watches
The attention would fluster most
She moves with confidence

When she passes
Daydreams about a day together
Comes together
Or a night where we can come together

When she passes
I wanna approach her
She weakens my composure
Rejection would be torture

When she passes
I’ma grab her attention
Rejection or acceptance
She’ll know my feelings
When she passes
Our eyes connect
For a few seconds
But the moment is timeless

When she passes
I open the door for her
Watching her hips switch
Reminds me why I adore her

When she passes
She drops off a note
Drew two boxes
One Yes One No

When she passes
Amazed that she had a crush
Giddy as a kid
But I’m feeling like a grown up

When she passes
I hand her the letter
Wrote down my number
Call me whenever

When she passes
It’s all love
Talked for hours on the phone
Today she gave me a hug

When she passes
I think about our date
Feeling like a new job
Be damned if I’m late

When she passes
I’m enjoying her presence
It’s too far from Christmas
But she’s my present

When she passes
Like a dream come true
And within this dream
It’s just us two

When she passes
That’s all it was
I’m still sitting here in awe
Staring at her

When she passes....